christmas spirit..

..cold and rainy..

got sick with the season.. :)

(sicky joaqui and joh)

need to get through

have some fun..

forget all those sad things.

forgive, then forget.

:) smile.., its christmas..

its all about loving and forgiving

.. spread the christmas spirit.

==

missing my hon.

thinking he's also with us.. enjoying.

(hon, have some fun there, but still mellow down on fatty food and drinks.. ;)

we miss you and love you.. )

God bless us all!

small cut.

wounded by bread knife.

impossible?no.

too soft and sensitive

anything can mess with it

paper, knife, blade, scissor,

.. anything sharp.

lessons:

- learn how to be strong. work out!

- sharp edges, can cut. avoid it!

- don't show to kids how to use a knife. they might do it too!

- we often explore everything. kids do it too!

- knife can cut, words too!

- time heals, just wait.

- medicine can cure. "sorry", also true!

.. mixed

happy. sad.
cry, laugh.
weird, i'm it.
things can't explain,things can't express..
in the end...
thankful.

good things, bad things
part of life, part of me.

God is gracious
never questioned.
he knows the plan.

miss my partner, i miss him so much...
thankful for who he is.. and for what he has.

love my son..
as parents, we'll do everything.
hope we can give everything.
at your age,hope you can feel us.
understand everything within us.
we love you so much.

hope.
pray
grow up as a better man.



another day ends.
thank you.

enjoy everything.
time.
people.
blessing.

give.
share.
be thankful.


smile..
life's full of surprises.

..mixed.

this is how joaqui chat with paps..

joaqui knows how to chat with paps. he'll just type any letters, then enter. hihihi. that's the result / exposure of two people talking thru the net. he also knows when to chat. if he notice i'm infront of the laptop, we're chatting. he'll disturb me, lay down thru my lap or sleep near the laptop. hihihi! naughty joaqui.

two-week colorful bonding moments

its almost two weeks of bonding moments with hon and joaquin..
so nice to see my boys.. playing, laughing, doing lots of wacky things (hehehe). for a long time, hon just experienced the most wacky thing, joaquin does when playing.. throwing his toys. you'll definitely get some bumps on your head! (ouch!!)

to hon.. i love you.. thanks you for being with us again.. hihihih.. am sure, we'll enjoy the rest of your vacation with joaquin, just get ready to rumble!!! hahaha..

reunion.. second time around

we had this mini reunion of college classmates/ friends... this time, its joseph ronquillo's call. we were amazed of what they have shared.. helen lacdao and joseph ronquillo are together. yihee!!.. sweet! how nice to see those batch of classmates and friends together. spreading the love breeze that davema and jonjon started.



congrats, helen and joseph. God bless you both.. may your sweetness together will continue to flow. can't wait to hear the wedding bells ring.. :)

tired..

where am i busy at?..
busy and toxic on the virus trapped at laptop. making fun of me doing nastythings on files, folders, windows and programs, etc...

or.. having several line ups of clients. submitting their applications for approval on life insurance..

or .. driving the car.

i'm tired. need some unwinding activities..

where are you hon?!

lifehouse concert.. feel good!

watched a concert last saturday.. with buddy mike and his gurly friends/officemate ;).. its a nice and good feeling to watch concert. long long time a go since i've watch concert of international artist/band (bon jovi)..

.. thank you mike for bringing up the mood in watching concerts.. !

.. more to come!!!.. yeah

wiggly wacky

how funny to watch this video, ayie and wacky. wacky, hyperactive.. enjoys his ate ayie.. hehehe
taken by tita sandy from motorola v8..

lets watch!!!..

just woke up

just woke up early... thinking and doubting to go to makati to attend DZMM.. hmm.. its raining. i dreamt of hon and immediately on the laptop, get connected.. wahlah!! he's not online.. :( huhu..

yesterday, we went to the church. mommy ask for favor to meet auntie billie. that time, i just dropped mariz and joaquin to church and meet auntie billie at cubao area. just then, malou and marianne was with her. right there and then, i gave now the thing mommy ask and then i accompany them near their place. it was a good idea cause i convinced malou to get an insurance. good thing, she'll pay probably next week.

.. where are you hon. hope you're ok

our day!

happy anniversary hon!!!.. :) smile. God bless us.. we love you - from joh and joaqui

confirmed

...what a nice news for good morning. smile can't erase on my face. read from hon's blog his schedule to be home this august. exciting!! hihihi.. :)

http://randyvillanueva.wordpress.com/2008/07/09/30-days/

periodic maintenance

just took yaris to TMSS.. (Toyota-Marikina) today.. it reached already the 5000 mi periodic maintenance to render at the car, actually the odometer reading is already 6636. i carefully observed and watched the routine and the services they render . i always ask and know the details of everything.. inshort, i'm thinking again of enrolling a short course on automotive.. hihihi.. funny huh?! i enjoyed knowing the parts of the car and its function.

the sad thing.. its in the warranty but i have to spend for the maintenance.. haay..

nathaniel's bday

its my nephew's bday.. and sure its the typical "makulit" and "maingay"celebration at cogeo. indeed, joaquin had fun with the gang. we just left too late at the house,just so happen that i do the tutoring to abeth.. tsk, too sad. i haven't had a lot of time to teach those kids regarding difficulties in handling math subject. i miss teaching algebra.. :) hope they had tito or tita to ask and help them to understand and solve their assignments.. haay!..

missing also my husband.. count down! funny, 'cause recently i got too mushy and sweet to him.. felt some intense, and excitement. i guess that's what we called balikbayan syndrome.hehe.. sandy might tease me again, "di nakatulog si ate joh, excited.." but honestly, i really miss him. don't know why. i just made it almost 5 months of being diverted to joaquin, but now.. i do really miss him.. can't wait to see him..

.. love you hon, advance happy anniversary! 3 days to go.. to go on iPhone!.. :D

independence day..

when can i see movies again..
want to watch Hancock.. hmmm..

1 week of busy-ness, 1 week drama from joaquin's sickness(part 3)

Journey of joaquin at Medical City


i texted ate pen, to help me and accompany me at the medical city.. pasama kasi nga aadmit na si joaquin

we, joaquin, mommy and ate pen.. went to The Medical City, arrived past 5pm.


june 27:

6:35 we are admitted to The Medical City. At first, we went to the admission office. the admission officer ask for my the admission slip/order. we don't have any of that. so they suggest we have to go to the ER first, for assessment.

right there, they took joaquin's temperature thru the ear.. (hi-tech talga!) i was amazed by that. thermometer palang hi-tech na.. and then they guide us to go to the Pedia-ER. i'm so overwhelmed by the way Medical City assist all the patients / clients. At the Pedia-ER, joaquin was still crying because he knew we're at the hospital and he also saw the doctor, asking me and taking his vital signs.. after that, right there and then i also cried not because joaquin cried but because i saw a little girl, crying at her mom.. she saw the nurse talking to her mom and looking at her for analysis.. afterwards, a loud cry and anger, saw her grabbed and tucked with blanket by three people because she was being inserted with I.V. .. grabe luha ko .. sobrang awa sa bata.. crying but telling something thru her cry. i was thinking, kawawa talga mga bata, they can't really tell what they really feed.. they 'll just cry and cry.


i texted then mommy and ate pen. sabi ko punta sila sa tabi namin ni joaquin.. di ko kaya ung nakikita ko.. naawa ako sa bata.. haay..

at 7pm, we are already at our room.. sobrang nice.( NO925 . 9th floor is for PEDIATRICS Room.) its the standard private.. single bed lang.. with TV pa.. mommy and ate pen requested pala for a semi private room ( for 2 patients). pero tomorrow pa availability.. kaya dun kami napunta. sobrang tuwa na ako kaya di na kami nag palipat... :D all the rest of our stay was still at the said room.


with regards to joaquin, at first he always cry out loud. He always saw the stetoscope, thermometer, nurses, doctors, etc. but afterwards, nasanay na siya.. lagi lang akap sakin para hingi comfort. i love joaquin for that.. he always hugged me.. all of our stay there.. parang ako patient, lagi kami magkapatong sa kama.. ako nakahiga, sya nakadapa sakin.. he never let me go and sleep without hugging me.. even when he's just watching his favorite DVDs. i should be beside him kahit naka upo or nakahiga. all of our stays there were all accomodating. we feel talaga ung asikaso nila. kahit ung room at service lang binayaran namin dun, feeling ko worth it ung bayad namin.. dextrose lang at follow up check up ng nurses, and doctors ang binigay ng Medical City.. the paracetamol we use is our own paracetamol.. the food pala, for the watcher.. ok naman. 5 meals.. breakfast, snack, lunch, snack, dinner. ok na rin. we stayed at the hospital almost 3 days.. have the expenses almost 18k.. kulang kulang 20k ( hi, hon!) the hospital was 15k already.. with discounts na un..( from the doctors PF and Philhealth) mahal pero feeling ko talga worth it na.

here are some of the glimpse at the hospital..

1 week of busy-ness, 1 week drama from joaquin's sickness(part 2)

before we left the hospital, dra. solomon requested to have chest xray to joaquin.
.. at home, tulala ako. sobrang lungkot. isip.

in the middle of the night.. mommy is suggesting again, to buy suppositories for fever.. paracetamol na nilalagay sa butt to lower down temperature faster. with matching consult to ate willen, kaya hinayaan ko na lng..
funny lang kasi, when we are doing the suppositories, si mommy ang gumagawa.. and joaquin stared at mommy.. parang galit. alam niyang si mommy ang gumawa nun sa butt niya.. hihihi.. wawa nman..


june 27:
early in the morning, because of fever, i'm thinking of bringing joaquin at the hospital already.. but thinking also to finish first my consultation to doctora solomon,to finalize her findings.. and then if there's nothing she will do and still the same suggestion/ prescription, i'll go to the hospital (st.lukes or medical city) for further analysis on joaquin's situation...

but the usual mommy, tensed.. daming suggestion.. dalhin raw dun sa matanda, papatawas.. malapit lang para patingin.. right there we had another argument. so the day went on. kuya reyson heard our arguments, he stopped me to talk, just ignore mommy and do my itinerary. tanung niya ako kung ok lang ako dahil magdadrive ako.. ignore ko na lng raw.. ganun talga si mommy..

after my consultation to doctora, she suggested to have joaquin an I.V. he's dehydrated. he cried alot but no tears fall on to his face.. also his weight was down, 2lbs already. first assumption of doctora was suspected dengue because of some rashes and red traces/ pattern on joaquin's skin. she done the torniquet for 5 mins. (procedure on detecting dengue spots on skin) a little spot was shown,but insisted to have another CBC. good thing the platelet counts was ok.. so she gave 2 options as guide. if we want to have joaquin be admitted to have the dextrose, good .. kahit saang hospital gusto ko raw/ o nila.. :) or stay sa house pero we have to be creative to feed joaquin. again its our own decision what to do. she reminded me, ako pa rin decide.. iba pa rin ang mother's instinct and don't have to worry kasi its not dengue..

right there, i called mommy. i said to her, admit na lng pero ask ko sya suggestion kung san.. kasi i really need help sa finances.. bka di ko makayanan ang amount ng expenses.. at least support lang incase ma short. i texted also kuya reyson about the findings..
after that, i rushed to sandy. have the dollar changed.. go back after we had all the things packed and done at home..

Now, that was the start of our journey to have joaquin admitted at his birthplace.. "The Medical City"..

.. see part 3 ;)

1 week of busy-ness, 1 week drama from joaquin's sickness(part 1)

joaquin got sick almost 1 week. it started last monday, june 23.
first, after we went to Trinoma, on the bed i felt his head too hot.. i observed his temperature,lowering down thru first aid medicine paracetamol. (tempra) .. 4 hours after it went up and down, and then gave again tempra, again and again and again.

june 24:
we celebrated mommy's birthday at edongs restaurant with little joaqui not feeling well.. until i decided to have a check up early wednesday morning at 'Glory of Zion', to dra. Solomon.

june 25:
findings - not to worry. it might be a baby measles (tigdas hangin) or virus maybe the cause or somewhat.just continue to have the paracetamol and not to worry. but if ever joaquin still have fever, we will be doing the laboratory test to find out what really is the cause of his continuous fever. still temperature high and right then, at 4pm we ran to the st. ignatius laboratory/clinic to have the tests (CBC and urinalysis)." thanks to tito glen venus, he accompanied us to drive the yaris.. wasn't able to drive because of my boil and also, i can't find my license. maybe i left it inside the crosswind". we just had the blood test only, because joaquin wasn't able to wee on the wee bag. hihi.. maybe conscious on that thing attached to his little bird. :)


june 26:
early in the morning, we had his wee already at 8am, but we finished and arrived at the laboratory past 9am. the laboratory didn't accept the urine.. so we waited so long for joaquin to wee again and have his urine for the urinalysis. until we had it before 12pm and rushed it to the dra. solomon .findings are still the same, but she prescribed antibacterial medicine.

late in the evening after series of discussion with mommy, we rushed joaquin at st. victoria hospital because of 39.9 degrees Celsius temperature..i'm not yet tensed on that temp, but mommy insisted to bring joaquin to the hospital.. since dra. solomon is an accredited pedia at st. victoria, we decided to have joaquin there incase of check up or admission. after talking to the ER , the same findings as what dra. solomon had with joaquin but the resident doctor, suggested if we want to admit joaquin just to have an I.V. for hydration. we, mommy and i, asked the doctor, if we can do the management to joaquin at home, on monitoring temp to low down and give hydration thru water intake.. the doctor said its ok but if we are stressed and tensed on the situation its our own prerogative to have joaquin admitted. right then we decided to bring joaquin at home.. but with my conscience and pressure on mind,series of headache/little 'sinat' because of my boil, i know after all these, i can't concentrate and give the management properly to joaquin at home, because mommy might give a big pressure on me why i didn't decide to have him at the hospital.. a lot of sermons and talks that would irritate me.. just a couple of minute i talked to dra. solomon on the phone and told my side. so i decided to have joaquin admitted...

before we sign the admission slip, sandy accompanied me to see the available room the ER suggested - Surgical ward. .. wow, with our eyes open wide.. we are shocked on what we saw.. 7 beds with patients who had surgery (just what the room was named) and the available bed was too far at the entrance and almost at the corner.. poor joaquin if ever he will be admitted at the hospital. atras ako, sobrang nainis ako.. sabi ko na lang uuwi na lng.. i talked to sandy and cried. i said all what had happen why i decided to have joaquin admitted. right there, sandy just said.." ako na bahala kay mommy.. wag na dito ate joh.. kung gusto mo sa iba na lang.."
i smiled and felt meron akong kakampi on what sandy have said to me..

after that we talked to the ER staff, signed the dismissal form and then we went back home..
just then i saw joaquin too gigly and playful. he does all his pa-cute routine. joaquin has this mind of a big person.. twag na nga namin matanda na kung magisip... he knows the hospital. i know he hated also at the hospital. alam niya na aadmit siya kaya pinakita nyang ok na siya.. hihihi..

... thinking all the while, the whole moment i've experienced.. sobrang nalungkot ako.. hirap. di na ako makapagdecide on my own.. too pressured on things. masyado n akong down. that was also the week, we had small argument/ big issue with hon..

lets continue this talk tomorrow.. a little suspense.. :)

.. too comedic, too dramatic

its mommy's dramatic scene.. hihi. in the morning, mommy insisted to go out and told us to go to Trinoma coz she'll be buying something (dish rack) and to Manila Waters..inasar lang ni sandy, kaya mejo inis. late in the afternoon, sandy and mommy had a fight, simple misunderstanding that lead to tantrums and the worst.. we went home from Trinoma (sandy, ayie, me and joaquin) without mommy. she just left us without knowing she will not come back.. until now she's not at home.

mommy called mariz, without intentions of turning the voice call to loudspeaker.. so i heard what mommy is saying.. hihihi!.. she's asking mariz not to let us know she'll be hiding. :) she will be home but not to tell us where or when she will arrive.
too dramatic!! the term sandy is using.. she's having "balikbayan syndrome" again. :)
its her bday tomorrow and kuya reyson will arrive! ;)


just chat with mandy..
.. .. haaay..wanted to shout!
this day is not my day. can't release what i really feel!.. my boil is already healing, but now i guess its boiling again!!!! grrr. ouch
.. crying inside-out
... stressed..
(breathe.. inhale exhale)

delay

delayed flight of kuya reyson today.. tomorrow, i'll be the one to drive and fetch him at the airport with mommy (mother-in-law)



.. scary its crosswind, i'll be driving.. :)

..still counting

.. countdown - 2 days

... coldwar ba?! must be celebrating monthsary.

.. nuninuninu

it was rainy, stormy day, (storm Frank) and we have no lights, no dialtone, and no internet connection..
winds are too strong, almost hear the whoossh sound. might be the roofs of all the houses and garage will dumped on the roads..
trying to connect thru my cel, glimpse on the Y!ahoo mobile to check my mails and messenger.
its almost 6pm the electricity came back..

.. still no emails or messages..

.. 1,3,5..

too odd... can't imagine. never received any mails or messages..
count down - 1 day

dual party

It's Xylos (son of Dreyden and Eva Villoso) and Gio Antonio's (son of Ma-an and Remigio Santos) birthday bash. we had lots of fun and joaquin enjoyed it specially the balloons. he had taken 2 ballons (KFC) at xylos birthday and first to have at gio's (Jollibee) birthday!.. wow. we're full! yum.. yum! thanks to sandy, she accompanied us and been our driver since i can't drive because of... hmm.. never mind

i'm so overwhelmed because i've seen my long lost girlfriends. At last, for almost 3 years, we've been complete on this event. thank you gals... missed you so much!

no access

passwords??!.. so better to change it also..? think that would be right....

ok then

.. nana my hair! - joaquin

have this first hair cut at the salon for babies/ kids for joaquin.. joaquin cried alot.. but soften when he saw the video of barney. the "kuya" at the salon is nice to joaquin. he's an experienced barber i guess, for kids and he knows how to comfort or play with them..have that low temper and advise us on how to treat the scalp for better growing of hair. its really joaquin who cannot control with his crying.. thank you "kuya"..




.. afterwards, joaquin realizes his hair was gone!.. he always touches his head and often say "nana! (wala na!)".. hihi. he looks like a shaolin kid!

mamcy's birthday today

we visited mamcy. bought some luyongs favorites (miki-bihon lechon, lumpiang shanghai and beef broccoli). mamcy looked at joaquin and said he looks like more of me, until she realized its more of mandy's. hihihi.. . it's joaquin's first visit to lola ninang place. he enjoyed the figurine of dog. he pointed also on the dogs mamcy have at the house.. he never liked the teddy bears celine and eloi' gave... pity joaquin, he likes the dog figurine more than little stuff toys.

.. seems another year has been added, mamcy. hihihi!.. but still looking young. ;)
... happy birthday, from joaquin, joh and mandy.

visit to fathers

we just visit daddy lolo yesterday..


daddy, papa.. happy fathers day

.. daddy, we haven't spent together at home a long time but i feel it with the men you brought up. to kuya reyson, happy fathers day.. to hon, i love you. thank you for everything.

.. papa, thank you for everything. your ways are still best to me, strict, old fashioned and strong. just stay happy and healthy. take care always.

.. for all the Fathers

Congratulations.. for being good providers,for protecting the household, for giving discipline and instructions to the family, for all the love.. thank you.

... For all the love, smiles and heartfelt concern to us, we salute you hon! Thank you so much.. May God bless you in all your ways, good health, good heart, good mind...

... Happy Father's Day!

.. i miss..

i miss watching movie..
i miss teaching..

i miss mama
i miss papa

i miss hon..

i miss...everything

toxic

Recently, i've been busy for the past 4 days.. First, i took the exam for variable life insurance licensing and good thing i passed. Next, met mandy's colleagues, because of money matters.. Afterwards,set a schedule for appointments with friends for the presentation of proposals. And the last,accompanied the two patients, the couple, (hehehe ..) in mike's gig session.

For all those activities, too toxic .. but no worries.
Felt the worth, and accomplished!

celebrants..

happy birthday.. God bless..

• Nadine Pena - co worker, CCA Manila
• Charmaine Marasigan - batchmate, PUP
• Jill Fernandez - batchmate, MIST
• Rodrigo Garcia - batchmate, MIST
• Jet De Guzman - churchmate, Faith
• Leslie Villanueva - churchmate, Faith
  

if i might forgot someone, happy birthday too..!!..

let's celebrate!!

....another victim

just seen this news in yahoo about Patrick Swayze.. being diagnosed also of pancreatic cancer, last March 2008 and have a new drama series to work on. to quote on what he said on the interview...



" 'Guys, I have some horrible news. But if you can be patient and stand by me, I'm going to come back and do the show.' "
"He said: 'I'm in great condition. I'm a cowboy. I'm a dancer. I'll beat this..."

[OMG, yahoo.June 7, 2008, 6:38 pm PDT ]


what's really on with this disease?! its too soundlike a cough or colds or maybe a chicken pox that anybody can have these anytime. i just read on some literature about it that you might never know you have it unless detected on the stage where the tumors almost got into your system and needs immediate treatment.. grrr..

and also don't know what to say or feel, heard the news about Rudy "da boy" Fernandez, left his loved ones on the day of my birthday.. june 7.

... i thought of mike..

.. hope all things, be on His will. Nothing is impossible with Him.

.. mike, i know you're also a cowboy! we're praying for good health and more strength to fight on this cancer. we are always here. we will never leave you.. you've shown us strength.. so please hold on.God bless you!

my day..

just celebrated my birthday at hometown, cogeo.. with the other june celebrants, nicole, zed lehi and ate pen..
after, we went to dampa with mommy, sandy, ayie, joaqui, mares and beth. :)

its my day!!

sweetest things i ever received today.. (kilig)

• my hon.. he posted it on his blog and announce it to the yahoogroups.. but the thing is, he greeted me exactly 12am today! thanks hon..
  


• my son.. i woke up with my son beside me smiling.This may be the usual and daily routine in our mornings but still its very special for me. i'm very thankful to God for waking me up and see His goodness.

• friends and family.. thank you to all of you! Charlot,miss you alot; Mike and Jo1,i'm touched; Rommel Saw, tabachuychuy miss ko na ikaw at ang STI family; Ate pen, i feel blessed when i'm with you; Manulife-North Diamond group, thanks! God bless and happy selling; Sandy, Mommy, Mares.. thank you! hihihi..


• Friendsters.. thanks for the greets. ;)

been busy..

been busy these days..

.. june 4- just spending time with joaquin.. what's the no t-shirt thing?.. :)

june 5- birthday of Nicole Alysson U. Tamayo

june 6 - training VL and regional meeting at Manulife LKG 15th floor. North Diamond as host

birthday bash... christian (shiks son)

its christian's (shiks son.. ) 3rd birthday yesterday held at jollibee alimall.. Jollibee mascot is so funny. we laughed out loud!!.. even the adults enjoyed the party. thanks sheila. God bless to you and your family..
next stop, ma-an and mio's son, GIO.. we'll be expecting it on 3rd week of june at jollibee marquinton!.. ;)