immersion

.. to reality.

but rise, dont want to blend!

diversion..

Side A:

october 22.. start of sleepless nights... nightmares. melting point.

october 23 2010.monthsary.. :(

decisions.

heart aches.

keeping secrets.

bursting out.

......

side B.

myspace.. ricoblancomusic. neon lights

tumblr

pics

.. joaquin

monthsary..

happy wedding monthsary, hon.

reflecting... (July 23,2010)

courtersy of tumblr

so sadden by this view… :(

same experience. have seen some view just this evening. as i’m driving.. just came across and pass thru jupiter street in makati where i should be going straight to mandaluyong bridge for short cut to avoid traffic going home. i saw a man, carrying alot of sack, from left to right, and saw at his back, carrying his kid, also with a sack of bag carrying as they walk the street. i can’t imagine how awful and hard it was. can’t see any smile on his face.

..seeing all the blinking lights, hotels, restaurants,foreigners across the street, good looking people, smoking, strolling around with nice shirts and dress..happy, smiling. i was crying inside and wanted to stop.. why am i seeing this.. strucked at that moment.

…. thank you o lord for all the blessings you have given us. we couldn’t thank you enough for having such wonderful life. nice dress, shirts, house, food, comforts, opportunities; watching movies, sharing moments with friends, spending time at mall, coffee shops, etc… how blessed are we, for we haven’t ask for it but was given …by our parents, families, relatives,friends, etc. thank you for them, for being the channel of your blessings. may we serve also as one of your channels to spread your love for each one of us. may we share also your blessing to other people, who needs comfort, food, shelter, clothing, and simple smile on faces…

.. bless us, protect us, heal us. we surrender our lives to you. -_-

saving this conversation..:) mama, smiled at it

Mama is watching HBO, movie is Iron Man 1... and joaquin is playing with this toys,Thomas and friends.

Mama:.. 'Nak, nak.. excuse. (watching tv)

Joaquin: 'nak? (questioning)

Mama: .. anak, excuse me i'm watching..
Joaqui: .. who's there?..

.. mama stop, thinking..

Mama:... hahaha, i got it.. knock,knock who's there?! hahahaha..

joaquin.. playing with his nose on cam.. he is fond on seeing himself doing the joke on his nose. :) so funny how he laughed..

miss ko na hon..

.. kahit inis ako dahil di kami nagkausap nung araw namin, miss ko pa rin sya. Lord, help me. mejo moody and lonely joh. parang di naman halata kanina, kasi masaya naman... just went to magsaysay again, prospecting and got so many prospects to plant (most are seafarers). also, i've met dani and melvin first time at the airport. nice to meet them, nga lang mejo malayo at nalito ako dun sa daan nila.. hehehe. next time makakabisado ko naman un.. hihihi. .. but in the end.... haay. mejo lonely.. or di kaya dahil sa pagod ako. hay, lord. take charge. change my heart. huhuhu..

misses hon..

nanaginip ng di maganda.

hinahanap ko't di makita

panalanging siya ay kasama

masaya, walang sakit at maginhawa.



kung minsa'y nangangarap lang ng magandang buhay,

nawa'y maabot na at ng di na magkahiwalay pa.

panu na kung makasanayang ganito

anu na ang mabubuo... pangarap na lang ba ito?.. :(



eto na ang epekto, nagiging makata! nababaliw, nalilito..weeeeiii!!!

siguro ganito nga ang mga poet. malungkot siguro sila kaya nakakagawa ng tula.. hehehe

Muse & The Edge - Where The Streets Have no Name (Glastonbury 2010)

nice..

their music is good to ears .. indeed! looking forward to see them live here at phils.

mall, yaris, jeepney, umbrella, soccer game, ... joaqui

all these are in my dreams.. don't know what these mean.. but it came from a bad dream... huhuhu.

lets skip on the details but it was really a tiring, bad dream. i think it was really bad because i saw joaquin, crying. it definitely says that because he slept without me beside him. feeling guilty ako. kaya i am really sad about this... huhuhu..

i dont know what it means... :( samut saring larawan ng kung anu anung kaisipan.hindi ko maintindihan kung anu ibig iparating... ang alam ko lang at naalala ko, pagnagigising ako .. bago ako maidlip ulit, titingin ako sa internet baka me email na si hon. puro wala.. ang alam ko lang sa sarili ko... miss ko na si hon.. :(.. sana lang ok siya.. felt like napagod ako. parang andami kong ginawa.. just remember, ilang beses pa la akong nagising... siguro dala ito ng puyat.. (woke up at 3am, 6.30 am, 7am then 8:45am)

FINDING CURE TO TAGULABAY (URTICARIA)

searching for cure and causes of "tagulabay".. as what joaquin is in now.

at first i thought, the bump on joaquin's head was a simple small like pimple. i never really got to look at it seriously.maybe it is caused by loosened hair follicles. Days gone by, as we are taking a bath, he avoided me to touch a part of his head where this bump is. i looked at it and saw 5 pimples grouped in one place that causes the bump. i immediately open my medical kit and got the ointment "bactroban". i carefully apply the ointment. hoping it will dry up easily. after a day, i saw the 5 pimple accumulated and became one big bump with pus that at any moment it will burst. after taking him a bath, i saw the pus slowly coming out on the bump. it means the bactroban worked!.. as i slowly remove the yellowish thing on the bump, saw a small hole! afraid and thinking of consulting a doctor for quick medicine that will help the healing. so we rush to a doctor and was advised with continued application of bactroban, drinking of antibiotic, and some anti allergy for itchiness and pain reliever if in case it hurts. timingly, i have no enough money to buy all these and was afraid and conscious on it. praying and asking for God's providence. i definitely had no extra money and no funds at all. sadden by looking at my list of expenses.. it was really sad knowing that i had money but all has been alloted for bills and due payment. i thought of "uutang na lang kahit may tubo", but maybe, they might not believe that i have no money at all! huhuhu..

so... thinking of good things.. hehehe. searching on my files. do my Manulife thing. preparing for prospect client, calling for appointments. then i smiled. praying that i can close a sale with big commission to cover up all the upcoming dues and some funds for emergencies such like these. searching on internet on how this "tagulabay" really had on with Joaquin. what causes it? and how to cure it naturally. you know as moms, natural treatment is really a big deal for us. if it can help on the treatment, why not. so, as i search and google it, i saw a link that was on to a blog site.. sharing his thought and experience on the treatment of tagulabay or urticaria. he shared his experience and finding out that all that really helped on him is a shake!.. fruit/veggies shake... what are the contents?.. many!.. but just don't forget the main ingredient, CARROT!. wow. i was so amazed. thinking also that carrot really had a good help on either sickness, disease or what so ever. now, thinking of going to grocery (puregold). i'll buy carrot-apple fruit shake!. yeah. and so we will invade now the fruit shake. good luck on colds and cough. for it might be the next big thing on joaquin. :)

triggers urticaria:

• Medications, especially aspirin, ibuprofen, naproxen, narcotic painkillers, or antibiotics.
• Infections with viruses, bacteria, or fungi.
• Environmental allergies such as insect bites, pollen, mold, or animal dander.
• Physical exposures such as heat, cold, water, sunlight, or pressure.
• Medical conditions such as gland diseases, blood diseases, or cancer.
• Food allergies such as from strawberries, eggs, nuts, or shellfish.
• Stress.
• Milk, cheese, sea foods, orange, mango, chicken.

welcome back

Welcome back ed..

and we celebrate it at old spag house. favorite place of sandy and ed.. nice food! nice service! kuya dennis served the best food and drinks.. We'll definitely come back (The Old Spaghetti House/ Grilla , Sumulong Hi-way )

Cheers!

must HTC..

must HTC... (must Have That Cellphone )..

cool yo!.. htc tatoo

one week.

one week, almost done.. at parang isang buwan na ang nakalipas nung umalis si 'ndy.. a lot of things happened. masaya, malungkot, exciting, fulfilling, thrilling, etc. up and down sa saya. mahirap pero masaya. malungkot pero alam mo me patutunguhan naman lahat at alam mo naman sasaya ka rin muli!.. madrama, pero minsan nakakatawa.. maaksyon pero minsan nakakaiyak. parang movie?!..

nuod na lang ako..

ganda. panuorin niyo.. fireproof. nakakatouch.i cried too much tears. (siguro nakakarelate..aminin.)

new day..

new day. a day without our man.. mandy. hay. mejo advance level na 'to. although cycle na naman, pero siguro as we go along.. it may not be the same as the usual.. sana meron pa ring kakaibang level of learning and adjustment. just looking back for the past 3 months na walang blogging, eto po lahat ang nangyari.. thankful po sa quality time, well spent with each other.

eto po un.

Vacation 2010

enjoy! as we have enjoyed it a lot..

do it now

need to work on..
follow on the schedule..
set meets..
phonecalls to go..
file.
market.


where should i start?

.... start it right. pray.

Our Little Wizard

magic.. chana!!

The orange-bubbly family

year of the orange... este.. year of the tiger..

welcome 2010..

wow.. long time no blogging... tagal rin.
forgiven. since spending time with my J-M's.. (hay.. whats with the Initial letter?!) anyway, just spending more time with my 'mag-ama'. Bumabawi lang po.. kasi iba na talaga magiging bonding time nila... kulitan blues! sarap panuorin. ibang ngiti at tuwa. walang kapantay.. (dramatic scene)

just a little - going back to the future- setting. heheh.. so far 2009 was really a different year. daming experience. totoo! parang jampacked nga eh lahat naexperience na. but the thing is, all is well with Him. i know all of those things have reasons.

... thanking side naman.. (famas awards)
thank you sa lahat ng mga nakilala, nabalikan, at mga nawalang kaibigan. salamat sa inyong lahat. sa experience, sa sharings, sa lahat lahat.
.. at sa mga kakilala, na di pa nagiging kaibigan, let's be friends. mahirap man gawin. or parang hirap simulan. siguro a little of openness and simple starting point. praying for it, for the time will come, the time to happen...still hoping cheers!!

sa mga kamag anak- kapuso, kapamilya.. salamat!! galing. iba talga ang kadugo. isa ang daloy. hehehe

sa mga kasamahan (organisasyon, katrabaho, kaututang dila,ka-blogs,etc.).. let's party!.. hihihi. let's dance more often. hihihi.. enjoy!

sa aking kabiyak, mandy; asawa, kaibigan, kaaway, kakampi, kalaban, kainisan, kabatian... thank you. you've been really a part of me. let's celebrate more of these 5 long years of marriage. love and friendship. salamat sa mga experience. sa mga naging kapart ng mga experience na 'to, kaibigan, kaaway,kalaban, kabati... salamat.

sa isa ko pang kabiyak, kabiyak ng aking dugo't laman.. sanhi ng pagbiyak ng aking tyan (ewww..) joaquin; anak, inspirasyon,motivation, playmate, my boy version.. hihi salamat. produkto ni joh and mandy. anak, dapat talaga pangalan mo... johnrandy -- joh 'n randy.. kaso maraming nainis, masayado raw pinagisipan parang walang thrill.. hihihi. pasalamat kay ninang ciara, siya ang me dahilan kung bakit maganda ang pangalan mo .."JOAQUIN MANUEL VILLANUEVA". (google the meaning, really great meaning!) we love you anak. wishing and praying that you'll grow up as a good man. maybe not as good as we can expect, but just as a God fearing man. un lang anak. maging mabuting tao na me takot sa diyos. ok lang khit makulit. basta controlled.

sa iyong lahat na naging parte ng maganda at makulay na 2009, salamat.
see you again this 2010. sana mas makulay pa. love it!

.. to be continued